Maybe I'm not normal? I don't know? I spend the better part of a year saving my butt off and going without so I could again come to the USA for holidays and meetings .. a world of possibility for a musician over here, the plane lands, I get off and see the American flag and almost instantly tears well in my eyes, the feeling of dread washes over me as I realise I'm not in the country I know so well, I'm far, far away from home and I feel sad!
Thankfully I learnt last time that this feeling of homesickness doesn't last, it passes and then I can begin to enjoy the trip.
Easter Sunday here in LA and some things are open and some closed but I'm so tired from jet lag that I feel ill.. When I feel ill I feel even more sad, so what is it? Is it sudden change that our brains don't like to process? It's a lot of change all at once! But being able to adapt to change is one of the greatest skills we can learn to master.. so I'm working on it and tomorrow after a good night sleep I have no doubt I will feel amazing and will be ready to embrace the chance to further my career.
I guess what I'm trying to say in this blog is .. Just take the chance, it may not always feel right to begin with, but that doesn't mean you're not on the right track.. my heart tells me I miss home but my gut tells me I'm in the right place at the right time of my life!
I will keep you updated during the trip.. Thank you for reading, much love to you all back home.. I miss your smiley faces and the ability to walk up to anyone and know that the majority of the time they will open their arms and make you feel loved. Australia .. We are the lucky country because we make it that way!
Live, life, love